too late

November 2008
We were going back to our house when i feel a sudden excitement in my stomach, my hands starting to shake and my feet feels cold, my eyes is blinking and my vision sees no one but blured immages. I said,"i feel like fainting but why?" then it happens i really did fainted twice that month and i couldn't know why? I went for a ckeck-up in the local doctor to see if i have a heart problem.. you see whenever i feel fainting my hearts skip so fast and my stomach is excited or upset? the result is normal...
Then he refered me to take an eeg test in cebu. Thankgoodness my father is now supporting u so together with my mother and my sister we went to the Chung Hua hospital. well this is an eeg test so i have to sleep but i have a very bad insomnia. I never tried sleeping in broad day light before. So i get the result and it's normal. We went to the doctor to read the result and he interviewed me.. It's seems that i might be possitive to seizure disorder so i have to take another test and this time i have to sleep so that we will get a complete result of the test. the second time i had to take another eeg test i make sure that i will sleep. I take 2 sleeping pills that day but i;m still having a hardtime sleeping. The doctor incharge is getting impatient...
After weeks of waiting i got the result and it was possitive. I have a seizure disorder. My family said that i should keep this as a secret. At first i did not understand why i have to keep it... i just folowed what they want me to do..... then a week after i got the result i contacted a specialist in brain disorder. He gave me a medicine it was Zonegran. and he wanted me to take an MRI scan which is really really expansive costing almost P9,000...
dURING THE MONTH I WAS really really weak. I feel so weak that i can't do things that i want to do...